|Punch me in the chin and call it a day
||[Dec. 15th, 2005|07:16 pm]
I have turned into one of those people that don't update!! *slaps me*
So like, James told me he's been in love with me since Halloween.
I told him that I disagree, and that he doesn't know what he's talking about. Not the nicest response, but I had to say it that way. I also told him that he might *think* he's in love with me because I have been the only girl he's dated since moving here, and I bring him food and buy him beer at the bar. Then I told him that he should go out and date a couple other girls...THEN if he still feels that he's in love with me, so be it.
I have made it quite clear to him a couple times that I cannot be in a commited relationship right now. I told him the reasons why, which are:
1. I've had like 3 other guys tell me they "love me, are in love with me, are falling in love with me, etc." only to then cheat on me and/or breakup with me a month later.
2. Too many times I have jumped into relationships without considering the consequences, which have turned out to be big ones.
3. I know that if left alone with Matty long enough we will makeout or have sex, and I don't cheat.
I didn't tell him #3 of course. But whatever.
The funny thing is, all I have really ever wanted from a guy is for them to love me, and only me. Now I have it and I don't want it. OF COURSE it's that way, cuz I'm fucked in the head.
Speaking of Matty, once again I am trying to control my jealousy when he talks to or about other girls. What I'm really trying to remember is, he could go out with 1329483 girls, but I'd still be his favorite. And I know it's true. Yah, we fight and cry and throw things at each other, but if that didn't happen, where'd the excitement be?? ;o)